I've been on a long and painful journey, but today, I went home. To take that journey up to London, was so wonderful, I'm floating on air. I have a kind of love affair with the city. I realised today, that I've been rumbling round London in one guise or another since I left school. I've never lived there, but I've worked and played there so much, I just love it.
So I took the train to London, and I took the tube across London and I went home - back to the Academy. it was a beautiful day too. I smiled at the tourists taking photographs of their friends standing infront of the Sherlock Holmes statue, and was interested to see the big queues for Madame Tussauds - the weather must be warming up! I have no idea what the appeal of that place is; wax people? WTF is that about? Nah, it eludes me completely. But then, it would. Current affairs don't inspire me, news is usually bad, and I can't do anything to improve it, so I'd rather stay out of it. So wax versions of goodness knows who - well, why would it appeal to me?
Of the music? The river has never stopped running; it was a trickle there for a while, but considering the amount of drugs that were running round my little self, and the amount of pain that they were just not able to hide, it's a bloody miracle that anything came out of me other than distressed sobs! I'm really glad that I managed to keep writing, it's kept the flame alive, and at times it's been the only thing that kept me focussed, was the only thing beyond the pain.
So today, I walked into the studio and was greeted with the warmest welcome. My dear friends, Hollie, Simon, Rob and Peiman were like sunbeams :) then Chris Redgate and his oboe joined us to run through our pieces for the microtone festival. That Chris is a legend; there is no corner unturned in his love affair with the oboe...it's not often you see someone so dedicated to their instrument. It's a pleasure and a privilege to be writing for him. He's so jolly too, yer, class!
I also met with Mee Na, the cellist for my Roehampton piece, and we ran through the score, tidying a couple of awkward little corners. I was comforted to find that there were only a couple of minor changes needed; it seems I'm learning!
So, lots and lots of music coming up - pieces being performed, new projects nibbing at my heels, so much singing to do, and ooh my yamaha and my rhodes have been burning up! I'm working on an arty live improv with electronics vibe ready for the Leeds composition with the poet...well, I'm not going to just write a 'song' am I? But I've set myself quite a major task for this one. Though nothing seems impossible after coming out the other side of these few months I've had (no, no, don't mention the boyfriend, the divorce, the custody battle, the...well, the past 5 years!!)
So now what? Low profile please. No dramas, no surprises please. Just me, my children, my family, my LVP family, and those crazy dots and lines that probably say a whole lot more about this journey than any words could express...
I'm a very happy lady. Thank you to everyone who has held my hand and kept me smiling - there's some pretty precious folk in my life, I am a lucky lucky fing, out to play again :) Hurrah!
So much music everywhere...
